| I look to the future and I only see closed doors. |
[Aug. 9th, 2005|11:45 pm] |
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| | gloomy sunday - byork | ] | it
really sucks coming home w/a pay check and not seeing a dime of it.
everything is bills, bills, bills. y couldn't I be one of those lucky
kids whose parents pay for everything. I miss the stage more than
anything. I feel like something huge is missing from my life and I
can't do anything about it. sure, I could go to school full time, work
full time, and be in shows but when would I see Jon? when would I see
my parents? from 10- 12 at night? something has to give and it has to
be my art. I need a job to pay my bills and the 2,500 I owe my parents
for fucking up SIUE, and I need full time at school to get insurance.
and giving up Jon is NOT an option. he is my other half and I love him
more than anything. so I'm fucked. this is shitty. I'm stuck in a major
hole.
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| I'll miss you Popo |
[Jun. 25th, 2005|09:54 pm] |
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| | radiohead- I will see you in the next life | ] | my Popo (grandpa) died and my grandma had a heart attack on wednesday. |
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[Jun. 5th, 2005|05:44 pm] |
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| | worried | ] |
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| | muse - hysteria | ] | passed my drug test : )
job is going well, Jon is doing well, grandpa is not. that's about all the news I have.
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[May. 14th, 2005|12:14 am] |
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| | full | ] |
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| | mother - pink floyd | ] | mmmmmmmm...........Indian food.........
ugh, I have to take a drug test this monday. detox sucks.
got a new job, I'm a groomer at Canine Designs!
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| MUSE |
[Apr. 28th, 2005|01:23 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | sore and sleepy, but satisfied | ] |
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| | space dementia - Muse | ] | yesterday
was the Muse concert. Oh my fucking god they are so amazing. they were
just as good if not better then when I saw them on my birthday. the
place was packed. I was dancing and headbanging and freaking out the
whole time and now my neck feels like it's broken. I hate that
shit. christ I can't stop thinking about it, it was so awesome.
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| MUSEMUSEMUSE |
[Apr. 23rd, 2005|12:45 am] |
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| | ecstatic | ] | MUSE
concert this Tuesday the 26th at the Pagent! It's gunna be an awesome
show. I'm so fucking excited! I recommend that everyone try this band
out. I think you might be pleasantly surprised .
http://www.muse.mu/
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[Apr. 10th, 2005|07:13 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | dirty | ] |
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| | IMAROBOT- black jettas | ] | So
my sister and brother-n-law need help with shit around the house and
outside landscaping so they've asked Jon and I if every saturday we'd
like to work with them and they'd give us $100 a day. isn't that
awesome?! Yesterday we went out with them to dinner after working
and had some great Indian food. Christ, that shit is hot. Today it was
really nice outside so I cut the grass for my dad and got $20. So if I
could just keep this work up and get another fucking job then I'll be
good for a while (money-wise). In other news, my Popo had been in the
hospital for the past week b/c of his congestive heart failure and
yesterday he was moved to a rehabilitation center to get stronger so he
can go home, or move in with us. I want him out of that place as soon
as possible. I don't trust the nurses there to take good enough care of
him after things that I've seen in just the last day. Right now I'm all
covered in grass so I'm gunna go shower. Don't miss me too much
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[Mar. 25th, 2005|02:10 pm] |
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| | nervous | ] |
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| | I'm so sorry for everything. we'll make it. | ] | hm. I have nothing to say, believe it or not.
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[Mar. 13th, 2005|06:52 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | aqua teen on the TV | ] | I
went to Chicago this weekend with Deanne and Jon, it was really fun. We
stayed in the cappiest hotel the first night, it was $50 a night too.
The wallpaper was coming off, there was no clock, soap or towels, and
some creepy dude asked Jon for crack outside our room. But it was still
fun. The next morning we went to a protest. It went ok, I handed out SO
many flyers and we all held signs. Here's why we were protesting: The
Canadian government recently announced that (so-called) hunters can
legally club and shoot 975,000 young seals over the next three years.
Most hunters use clubs or large ice-picks. The vetrinarians who
observed the hunt in 2001 found that most hunters skinned the seals
without first checking to see if they were unconscious. The observers
estimated that up to 40% of the animals were skinned while still
conscious and able to feel pain. 95% of the slaughtered seals are only
12 days to 12 months old. Hunters kill deals for their pelts, penises
(used to make aphrodisiacs in Asian markets), oil (promoted in Canada
as a health supplement), and meat. And or vice president fully supports
these commercial hunts and has even participated in them. How nice.
Stupid fucker. We then went and got some great Chicago-style pizza that
you have to eat with a fork, it was really damn good. We walked around
the city, then we drove FOREVER trying to find Chinatown and never
found it and drove even more trying to find a cheaper hotel. We ended
up finding a room for $48 but it was SO much nicer, my god. Then today
we got up and came home. That's about it, but it was relaxing and
really nice to spend time with them, I hadn't hung out with Deanne in a
long time.
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| it's always something. |
[Feb. 27th, 2005|12:59 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | hopeful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | the woman typing next to me in the library | ] |
So...........Jon and I found a stray cat. we were in SIUE's parking lot and I heard loud meowing from under a parked car. Upon investigating, I find a beautiful orange and white long haired cat. He was not front declawed and judging from his teeth and gums, I'd guess about a year old.(don't know the sex,so I'll be switching from he to she and back a lot probably) The cats hair was matted to the skin and will most likely have to be shaved. He was so increadably emaciated you could feel every rib, every vertabret. it was just heart-wrenching. so I picked him up and took him home to nurse him back to health. Now we don't exactly know what to do with him b/c the girl that asked me to look for a cat she could adopt, already got one without me knowing. so hm. The cat will be pretty expensive if we keep him b/c I would have to get him groomed, vaccinated, tested and put on heartworm/flee/tick preventative. all that alone (I pulled up an estimate at the animal hospital I work at) would be close to $200. that's not including medicines he might need if he has any problems. I really don't have that kind of money right now. I'm already in dept with my parents about $300. I can't bring him to a shelter, he is so sweet. *sigh* well, we'll see what happens. |
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